As I mentioned yesterday, I’m using the classic devotional by Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest, to help me with my daily Bible reading.
In today’s devo, Oswald comments on the familiar story of Jesus walking on water to the disciples and then inviting Peter out of the boat to do the same.
. . . Peter . . . walked on the water to go to Jesus. But when he saw that the wind was boisterous, he was afraid . . . —Matthew 14:29-30
Oswald says, “The wind really was boisterous and the waves really were high, but Peter didn’t see them at first. He didn’t consider them at all; he simply recognized his Lord, stepped out in recognition of Him, and ‘walked on the water.’ Then he began to take those things around him into account, and instantly, down he went.”
He goes on to say, “We step right out with recognition of God in some things, then self-consideration enters our lives and down we go. If you are truly recognizing your Lord, you have no business being concerned about how and where He engineers your circumstances.”
How many times have I said “Why, Lord, why?” when I should just be concerned with walking in faith, following Him, no matter the circumstance!
To be frank — for instance, right now I’m hearing nothing from God concerning my future, my purpose, or my calling. It’s been that way for a longgggg time now. Sure, I’m being convicted by the Holy Spirit when I screw up, but no burning bush moments… and, daggone it, I want burning bush moments!
I keep asking God to talk to me, to tell me some wonderful secrets, to give me some monumental directive, and to pay attention to me in what seems to be (to me) a spiritual quagmire. “Why don’t you see me, God? Can’t you see I’m floundering here!?!”, I ask.
Aren’t I really doing the same thing Peter did? Aren’t my eyes more on the circumstances than on Jesus? Wait a minute. Don’t answer that.
A Yoda-like friend told me, “Okay, so you’re experiencing silence for a season. Doesn’t that mean you really have to trust God?”